say goodbye...

to 2005.

Here we are at the end of another year. Its funny how I find myself apporaching the new year with a new resolve in my walk of faith. The last few weeks, maybe longer, I've been living life on autopilot. The fact of the matter is that I really haven't been in touch with God, just going through the motions. I know that Satan has been at work to undermine what God has been doing in my life this fall. I know that that will not cease with the start of a new year. In some ways it would be nice to start each year with a clean slate erasing the problems of the year before. What happens next isn't reliant upon a new calendar but upon my willingness to do what is necessary. God, Jesus, My Lord and Savior, here is my heart, corroded by poor attitude and desires to do things my way. I pray that my heart will be attuned to You. Tear down the corrosion and the waste that I've laid up in my heart so that You might have free reign. Clean house so that I might be wholly Yours. Thank you for all you have done this year. Thank you for Connor, Abby and Jumah. Thank you for Sara and the blessing that she has been to me. Help us to never forget the ways in which You have mightily blessed us this past year.

contentment vs complacency

Why do we stay where we are? Why stay in a place where things obviously are not changing the way you think they should? So often we look to Paul's writings about being content in all things as reasoning for staying put. There is value in that under the right circumstances. But at what point does it become an excuse for complacency, for not stepping out and doing the right, albeit the harder, thing? That is the question I am left with tonight. I know the things I am passionate about. I know what I was called to a year ago. And right now they don't go well together. SO am I staying because I should or because I'm afraid to go? I don't know the answer to that question yet.